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21 August 2014 @ 05:41 pm
Which Doctor Who Companion Are You?

I ended up with Clara both times I took the test. (I altered my answer to the alcoholic beverage one because I don't actually drink alcohol so I didn't know which one to choose. They should really have a non-alcoholic choice.)

My dear impossible girl, only someone with a tremendously big heart and infinite bravery would splinter themselves along a friend’s time stream to protect them from the evils of a villain like The Great Intelligence. You’re the person everyone wants on their side, the person everyone is glad to call their friend.

I don't know how self-sacrificing I am. To be honest, I can be pretty selfish sometimes and I'm not exactly the bravest person you'd ever meet. On the other hand, if that means I get to dress like Clara--and I LOVE her wardrobe--then okay!

All this is to remind anyone that Doctor Who begins again on Saturday. Because, if you're like me, it might've slipped your mind until a couple hours ago.
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19 August 2014 @ 08:32 pm
Inspired by gothrockrulz's post on being a disorganized writer, I thought I'd give a glimpse into my chaotic madness of organizing and keeping track of my various notes, research texts, inspiration, plot tomfoolery, and the actual writing stuff. My method has evolved extensively since I started work on The Book. Before this, I used multiple notebooks for one WiP, left scraps of paper everywhere with notes and post-its with additional notes, and a chaotic mass of documents saved on my computer.

First, the physical stuff:

TIC_notebooks&stuff2 TIC_notebooks&stuff1

Everything you knew you didn't need to know about me and my organization skillzCollapse )
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Current Music: "Little Boxes" - Malvina Reynolds
11 August 2014 @ 07:56 pm
So. This wasn't the post I intended to make tonight, but with Robin Williams's sudden passing, I don't know how I could make another post.

Robin Williams is--was one of those people who, for as long as I can remember, existed in my life. It's hard to pinpoint when I first "knew" him. Probably, like most kids my age, it was Aladdin. Then came Jumanji, then Hook, then Mrs. Doubtfire, and then countless others. (For the record, his role as Armand Goldman from The Birdcage is my favorite of his. And in going through his IMDB page, there's a lot of his movies I haven't seen, but have always meant to.) He's the first movie star that I can remember who transcended past being someone who showed up in my favorite movies.

On the first day of Dance Camp at the YMCA, I remember that we had to fill out these "getting to know you" surveys. One of the questions, was "who's your favorite actor?" I recall that "Leonardo DiCaprio" came up a lot (this would've been a couple years after Titanic came out) and. . .others. (Seriously, who was the teen heartthrob of 1999?) I wrote down "Robin Williams" and got a few "Really?" responses. Yeah, really.

For me, Robin Williams has always been a physical manifestation of "life". Whether it be bouncing around on stage or flipping through impersonations like turning the pages of a book, I will always remember his energy. And even when he talked openly about his struggles with alcohol and depression, a spark of this energy seemed to vibrate underneath it all. I'm sad that that spark has gone out.

Now, if you'll excuse me, I have to go hunt down our VHS copy of Jumanji.
Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: "Smile" - Charlie Chaplin
07 August 2014 @ 10:09 am
Fuck you, Katy Perry. Fuck you and your stupid video and fuck my dumbass luck for turning on MTV when they, shockingly, were playing music videos. Because now, thanks to you, and thanks to imagery like this:

(credit to impossiblystill)

My brain is "wow, that kinda looks like your Nutcracker retelling--" "NO, SHUT UP, BRAIN! DON'T THINK IT!!!" Because you know what, brain, if you would've gotten your shit together 4 years ago, you could've beaten the other Nutcracker retelling. Because, brain, you've already pilfered material from the retelling idea for The Book. (But, brain, you don't want to write The Book. You've been stuck on Chapter One for weeks now.) (SHUT UP, BRAIN!) I would have to go through and figure out what to save for The Book and what I'm willing to part with. (Both male MC's are called "Wilhelm"; the villains in both stories are copies of the Mouse King; Millicent/Clara were kinda, sorta, maybe similar in personalities. I don't want to part with any of these in either story.)

On the one hand, it's clear where my heart is leaning towards.

On the other hand, I know which is the more unique, compelling story.

Back to the first hand, I know why I'm stuck with The Book: I planned too much; so my brain's like "we already wrote this, didn't we?" (NOT ON PAPER. IF PEOPLE COULD READ MY THOUGHTS, BELIEVE ME, WE'D ALL BE HAPPIER, BRAIN.) So if I could just push past this. . . .

But then, my brain sometimes works like a tape recorder and if I "record" over it, I may reset my mind back into The Book mindset and it would be new! and fresh! after writing something different. I also, since I'm basically starting over, may want to do a "practice manuscript" to get back into the swing of things.

But, brain, you don't want to spend a couple months writing something that you aren't even going to put out there because you don't really have anymore time to dick around. (YOU'RE DICKING AROUND RIGHT NOW BY ASSUMING THAT THERE ISN'T ROOM ON THE SHELVES FOR ANOTHER NUTCRACKER STORY.) (There isn't. I know this.)

So I'm left with this: Fuck you, Katy Perry.
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Current Music: "Waltz of the Snowflakes" - Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky
So I saw Guardians of the Galaxy yesterday because duh! I've only been anticipating it since February. I already have plans to see it again next weekend, so that should tell you all how I feel about it. But more specific things:

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I'm still in that after-movie high right now; but I think it's safe to say that Guardians of the Galaxy is second behind Captain America: The Winter Soldier in terms of favorite Marvel movie. I'll definitely be back for more in 2017.
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Current Music: "Ooh Child" - Five Stairsteps
Last Hannibal related post, I promise. I'm putting it behind a cut to hide my capslock of rage. You've been warned.

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So. . .if I'm reading this recent article from Deadline correctly (it's the one called "Comic-Con: Bryan Fuller Reveals ‘Hannibal’ Season 3 Details, Returning Characters & Emmy Disappointment"; LJ won't let me link to it), it looks like we're getting Red Dragon smashed into the end of next season.

I'm. . .I'm not sure how I like this. I mean, I was curious how they'd expand Red Dragon to fulfill a 13-episode arc. But, I was hoping they'd use the time and space to flesh out Dolarhyde and Reba and their relationship and move away from the Hannibal/Will murder husbands. So, right now, I'm extremely nervous about Dolarhyde's characterization and Alana being slotted into Reba's role to cut down on the number of new characters. (NGL, I'm pretty furious if that's the direction they're taking Alana.)

Upside: if I am reading Fuller's quotes correctly, at least I won't have to live in fear that Hannibal will be cancelled before the Red Dragon season.

But. . .Fannibals Three, I'm really scared now. Really, really scared.
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: "Sunshine of Your Love" - Cream
11 July 2014 @ 06:11 pm
So. Guess who just spent an exuberant amount of time researching lunar eclipse from the 17th and 20th century for a plot detail that--at minimum--is only going to be relevant for a few lines? Guess who now knows how to decipher NSA's lunar cycle charts and how to change Universal Time into EST? Guess who's been humming Bonnie Tyler's "Total Eclipse of the Heart" since 4 o'clock in the afternoon?

(It's ME, in case nobody got that.)

("Lunar eclipse" doesn't even look like a word anymore.)

(If anyone was wondering, the next blood red moon is on October 8, 2014. You're welcome.)

(And before anyone asks: NO! none of this research is for The Book. *does shifty eyes*)
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Current Music: "Total Eclipse of the Heart" - Bonnie Tyler

Today is the 5th year anniversary of this little blog. I wish I had something profound to say.

I'm happy that this blog/site lead me to finding more writer friends and my wonderful beta reader, and for their continuous support after my many, many whiny, self-pitying posts. You guys are AWESOME! (Although. . .guess who just chucked out those 3K words? *points to self*) I'm happy to have gotten a teensy bit involved with fandom through Doctor Who and Hannibal. I'm glad for all the conversations and discussions--those I've participated in and those that I've only watched--that have challenged my mind. I'm thankful for the tiny community of horror movie lovers that reassured me that I wasn't strange for indulging in the spooky and macabre. You guys are also AWESOME!

Here's to 5 more years as LiveJournal limps along the social media scene.
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24 June 2014 @ 07:24 pm
It's been 4 years and 2 months since I've finished a manuscript.

It's been 2 years, 7 months, and 23 days since I've begun a new manuscript.

Yesterday, I wrote 1,434 words for The Book.

Today, I wrote 1,627 words.

Total, I've written 3,061 words in two days, after 2 years of not writing anything.

The sad thing is, probably about half of that 3,061 is going to be cut/deleted.

As I've been writing, part of my brain says, "You know, you're kinda just writing things down." I don't have a good grasp on Millicent's voice yet. I feel like the story isn't atmospheric enough. I'm not doing the story justice. It's just. . .there. It's 3,061 words arranged and re-arranged into sentences that end with a period.

The other, louder part of my brain is like, "Shhh! Just get it down and fuss with word choice and voice later." Because after almost 3 years of not-writing, pulling out those 3,061 words was murder on my brain. I don't feel rewarded for my effort; especially since I've convinced myself that those 3,061 words are going to get cut in the end.

It has been 4-plus years since I've written a story beginning to end. I've accepted that it isn't going to be perfect on my first try. I'm basically starting over and it's going to take time to get my MC's voice down. It's going to take time to develop the atmosphere. It's going to take time and a lot of words--a lot, a lot of words--to create something that resembles a story.

But those 3,061 words. . .as shitty as they are, as likely as I'm going to not use them. . .those 3,061 words are mine. That's something to be proud of right now.
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Current Music: "Start Another Story" - Emilie Autumn